What If You're Not Broken?

[00:00:00] Speaker A: What if all your so called problems and internal conflict and issues that you have actually aren't yours? What if all this stuff that we feel bad about and guilt and shame around doesn't even belong to us? What if at your core, you are a beautiful, divine, golden being? In today's episode, we're diving into connecting with the purifier and coming back to your original natural state, which is already there right now. Because we can spend so much time trying to fix this and fix that. And there's something wrong with me. I'm a bad person. I made this mistake, I made that mistake, everything's a mess. And try and solve all these different things. Or we can use this approach, which we're going to share today, to really allow ourselves to understand who we are, who we're not, and come back to that beautiful, sparkling being that is always here. So welcome, welcome, welcome. So, Shireen, tell us all about this wonderful news that everyone is a shining golden being. [00:01:19] Speaker B: Yes, we are beautiful golden beings inside. Right? Like when we say gold, right? Let's, let's talk about the gold bit. Gold is one of the purest elements in nature. And so when we say we are golden, that means we are pure to begin with. That is our original nature. And many times again recently I was hearing someone talk about their shame and their challenges and this and that. And I was thinking, but you're not that. You are a beautiful soul, right? So what if the shame that we carry or the story we tell ourselves about all, everything that's going on, our weaknesses, our everything, right? What if it is based on a lie? That is what we need to explore today. I think it is based on a lie. What do you say? [00:02:28] Speaker A: Well, the firsthand experience is that we have thoughts that might not be the best thoughts and we do stupid stuff and, you know, so there's obviously some weird stuff going on here, right? On a practical level, but the question is, is that fundamentally who I am or am I originally a pure being and I've been influenced by things that have got stuck to me. So is, is it that this is who I actually am or is this something that I'm just experiencing? You know, it's a bit like if I drive through a messy town with all kinds of trash all over the place, does that mean I am a messy person or does it mean I'm just driving through something? You know, if I see some crazy scene on TV or on the Internet, whatever. Just because I'm seeing it doesn't mean that's who I am. So we're separating out the experiencer from the experience. So when you take everything else away, what is left? That's the fundamental thing. If you remove everything, what are you left with at the end of the. Are. Are we all that junk? So if I got rid of all the junk, does that mean we're gone? Or if we removed all the junk, would there be something left over that is beautiful? That's the. That's the big question, isn't it? So Shireen sent me something to read which is very special here. And I shall read it. Are you ready? Unless you want to share something from the stream. [00:04:03] Speaker B: No, no. Go ahead. [00:04:05] Speaker A: The purifier. The illusion. So this is illusion and clarity. The illusion is I am broken and need to be fixed. Clarity. You are gold that forgot it was gold. The alloy was added into the gold. The gold was original. And this is a conversation between the soul and God. God, I have tried for so long. I still see impurity and negativity in myself. I feel broken at my core, as if something fundamental is wrong with me that I cannot be repaired. God says, sweet child, as is the gold, so is the jewelry made from it. If you take 24 karat gold and don't use alloy, the ornaments made from it would be completely pure. Because alloy has been mixed into you, you have become negative or tainted. At first the world was gold. It was a completely pure world. It is now become tainted. Only God has the power to remove the alloy and negativity from souls. Only he can purify them and grant them freedom. When souls become pure, they receive pure bodies. I have come when you have become totally impure or tainted. I come to make you beautiful. And the soul says God. Something shifts inside me. I was never broken. The shame I carried was based on a lie. I am gold. I was always gold. The alloy was added. The gold was original. You don't fix me. You. You uncover me. I am not becoming something new. I am coming home to what I always was. So many of us carry this quiet belief that something is fundamentally wrong with me. We try endlessly to fix what feels broken at the core. But God's metaphor changes everything. You are not iron trying to become gold. You are gold. With alloy mixed in. Spiritual connection doesn't manufacture purity. It removes what was added. You're not becoming something you never were. You are coming home to what you always were. The purifier doesn't repair what's broken. He uncovers what was always there. It's very, very powerful. We can do a Drill afterwards. But let's just talk about that a little bit more. I love that. So how does it feel? Just tune into this. Everyone listening to this. How does it feel to think that you are gold and already now and everything else has just been added? Like, like that's how. How gold is mixed with. They melt it down and then they add silver and other things into it and then they make jewelry out of it. But pure gold is pure gold. It's a very different feeling, isn't it? Because for me, it makes me have self respect and a sense of like, I'm actually, everything's all right, you know, rather than thinking, oh my God, I got this problem, I got this. They're not, they're not ours. You know, another thing that I like related to this is that anything negative, anything negative doesn't belong to us. So if it's a negative thought or negative feeling, whatever it is, it's not, it's not mine. I might be experiencing it, it might be coming up because I've been affected, but it's not me at my core. It's very, very, very deep thing. So what are you taking from this, Shirin? What's been your experience with this very deep paradigm shift? [00:08:41] Speaker B: My experience is that the illusion, right, you don't struggle with an illusion, you just look at it. Let's say a magician, right? A magician, finally he's doing magic, right? He's doing magic. And then finally he decides to call you behind the scenes and show you how the trick is being done. And you go back into the audience, you don't unsee the trick. Now you know how the trick is being done, right? And so when we realize something is an illusion and we see it from the perspective of God, who sees through every illusion, totally sees through every illusion. And that's why he's the purifier. He purifies our illusions, really. He sees through every illusion and he cuts through all of that stuff. Then we just have to sit beside the purifier, beside God. This is why we need God in our life. We just sit beside the purifier and watch ourselves, right? And for God, when he's saying he's the purifier, it's almost as removing like a hair out of butter, right? Any weakness, anything. If once I see through the illusion, it's just being removed very easily. And if you think about gold, right, like let's say this ornament gold, it's gold. I think it's 22 karat gold. So 24 means 100% pure. 22 means about 8% copper is mixed in. And so the way you separate out is you put it in very high flame, and the copper just separates out of the gold. Right? And so the purification that. That's what is purifying the gold and the purification of the soul is I'm hanging out with the Supreme Soul. And the alloy, the negativity, whatever I thought was me, whatever I thought was broken, all just very gently gets separated out. And so we really need to be so close to the purifier so that can be separated out. [00:11:01] Speaker A: I watched a video once on how they get alloy our gold. I'm sure there is the heating it up, but there's other methods as well, which involve various chemicals. It's quite a process, actually, getting it. It's very interesting to watch what happens, but you end up with these two separate, totally different things. And this is such a profound thing because a lot of what we think we are and who we are and what we do is actually just alloy. It's a very deep thing. If you just sit there and say, okay, what is really my original self and what is this other stuff? You know? And you can think about this on a practical level. Like, if you eat, let's say, you have too much caffeine. I've sometimes had too much caffeine, Right. I remember one time when I was. Before I started doing meditation, I was working in a restaurant, and the dishwasher in the bar broke down. And we only agreed to wash their extra dishes if they brought us espresso every time they brought dishes for us, right? And so they did. So I remember my friend and I had about 20 espressos one evening. And I remember the. [00:12:11] Speaker B: Are you serious? How did your heart survive that? [00:12:14] Speaker A: I don't know. By the end, because we were super busy, right? We're like, we'll do all this extra work for you. We need coffees. It was kind of a joke, but they kept bringing them. And by the end of the evening, the whole thing was bright white. Everything was just white everywhere. It was. It was a bizarrest experience. So that experience was based on massive amounts of espresso. And that's not my normal experience. Right, That's. And so a lot of what we're experiencing is we saw something, we heard something, we, you know, something, something, something, something, something. And it's all coming up, and we think, that's me. But actually our natural state is just happy and joyful and relaxed. It really is. And everything else is the alloy and we can become so attached to the alloy that we think that's who we are. I remember talking to someone who said. She said that if she gets rid of all these things is that there'll be nothing left. That's what she said. Because sometimes we can get so attached to it that we think if it. [00:13:21] Speaker B: Went away, that's who we are. That's because we think that's who we are. So what do you. What did you say to her? [00:13:27] Speaker A: What did I say to her? Well, I'm sure I tried to convince her out of it, but these, These are very deep beliefs, right, that we get used to these. These tendencies and thoughts. [00:13:41] Speaker B: This is the thing, right? That that's like you hit. The crux of the matter is we need to accept I am not the alloy. It has to be deep acceptance from your heart. I'm not the alloy, I'm the gold. Till you accept it, no one can force it on you. So are you willing to accept you're not the alloy? Are you willing to accept you're not your weaknesses, you're not your shame, you're not your bad thoughts, you're not your whatever that you are pure gold? Are you willing to accept that? [00:14:18] Speaker A: And how would you feel if you did accept it? [00:14:22] Speaker B: And what does it mean to be pure gold? [00:14:24] Speaker A: It means to be in a continuous state of freedom in life. [00:14:32] Speaker B: Absolutely. I was thinking about also being love, being peace. [00:14:37] Speaker A: Yeah. [00:14:38] Speaker B: Being joy, being wise, being powerful. Right. That's who we are. That's our original state. And if we don't experience any of those things, like even if, let's say some people haven't even experienced peace, which seems to be the easiest thing, but they haven't experienced peace. And then they hang on to this negative stuff because they have not experienced any of this gold. And so if you haven't experienced any of the gold, you think you are the negative alloy, but actually we need to first start experiencing some one of those things. Right. But also this deep acceptance, deep acceptance from the heart. No, I'm not this. I'm not this negativity. I'm not this shame. Yes. I did something that I wasn't supposed to do. That's not who I am. And fundamentally our identity has to shift. Right. There has to be an identity shift fundamentally. [00:15:44] Speaker A: Yeah. It's a bit like being sick, right? If. If you get sick. Like I remember when I had Covid. I had covered three times. Is it. No, twice. Yeah. And both times I didn't particularly enjoy. It has to be. It has to be said and so like one minute everything's fine and the next minute I'm like all fevery and aching and can't do anything. And so that's not who I am. That's, that's a virus, right? That's, that's an outside influence come into the actual physical body in this case, that reduces the, the health, reduces the energy and brings about all these different experiences. So all this negativity or this alloy is a bit like an illness. And then when, when the illness goes away, then the health returns and the energy comes back again. And the, the key thing here is the purifier needs is the one who, who we have the purifier is the flame, right? We have to put ourselves into the flame to have that alloy removed. It doesn't just get removed by itself. So if you've got a piece of gold that's been mixed with stuff like let's say there's a nine karat gold that's got loads of alloy mixed in it, it's just going to sit there as nine carrot, isn't it? By itself. It has to be taken and put into the flame or put into these various chemicals and go through a whole process to separate that out. It doesn't happen by itself. [00:17:17] Speaker B: And so, and that's where God comes in, right? That's why you need God. He will do that purification. He's the purifier. [00:17:27] Speaker A: Yeah. And what we're doing is we're saying I am, I am willing to surrender the alloy to God and I'm also willing to admit that there is alloy and not hide it away because if I hide it and I pretend I haven't got any alloy, then I'm not going to go through the process of being purified because I don't see any need for it, you know, so that's, that's why giving the burdens, giving the burdens, letting go, letting go of the negative thoughts, negative feelings, that, that's the how it gets purified, isn't it? We come into God's company and we say take, take it all. I'm not attached to this, I'm willing to release it. So we have to ask am, am I actually willing to let it go, the alloy? Because if we're not, then it's going to be a bit of a rough ride, isn't it? [00:18:26] Speaker B: You know. [00:18:27] Speaker A: No, no, that's my, my alloy, you. [00:18:31] Speaker B: Know, related to this. Something is coming to mind. Recently we were having a meeting with a few departments. We created, right, we created the Departments. And then the person who's managing the department came into the meeting and said, oh, okay, so this department has this, you know, challenges and problems. And I'm thinking, we created this, right? Why did we create a department with challenges and problems? We can totally create this department in the way we wanted to create this department, right? Because the mind is so tuned into this, right? Like, you've already assumed a challenge. You've already assumed problems. And everyone who's in the department is buying into this challenge and is buying into this problem. And I'm thinking, no, we don't need to live like this. Do you understand what I'm saying? [00:19:32] Speaker A: Yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly. You create. It's unnecessary. It's like, why are you propagating something and continuing something? [00:19:38] Speaker B: And also it's the mindset around it, right? Like, why am I the mindset, right? Why am I having this mindset? Like, I need work to do, so let me create a problem and now let's fix this, this problem, and that's my work to do. Why does it need to be that way? [00:19:57] Speaker A: No, exactly. Most things we don't need to do anything about at all, actually. Just, just do it differently. [00:20:04] Speaker B: Totally. And right. So this totally. Identity shift. I'm gold. I'm gold. I don't need to create problems for myself. I don't need to manufacture things for myself. I just need to connect with the purifier because I'm gold. And the purifier will come and take out whatever is not me out. [00:20:33] Speaker A: Exactly. And to have the immediate attitude when negative feelings arise, that's not mine and it's not me, right? Like as an attitude. Because the word I, as soon as I think, okay, this thing came up, this my stuff, what am I going to do about it? I need to journal about it, process it, deal with it, talk to a therapist. Do you know? I mean, that whole process can, can go on for lifetimes potentially, right? There are many people, right? This whole idea that you have to figure out the root cause of all your problems in order for them to go away is a serious problem in itself. Because I could go to therapists, I could go to past life regression. I could say, oh, the reason I'm feeling this thing is because in six lives ago, something, something happened and this person did this, this and this, and that's why, blah, blah, blah, right? And let's say I figure it all out and let's say it's even accurate. And I got this big stack of papers on why everything happened the way it Did. Now I've got this big thing here about justification. Why I'm feeling the way I am feeling and why I'm doing strange things. I still have to surrender it to God and let it go, you know, after all that. So, you know, it's better to say I'm pure gold. I acknowledge that the alloy has been mixed in me. I acknowledge that that's causing various things in my life and I'm doing strange stuff or thinking things. But instead of getting into it too much, I'm gonna give it to the purifier to purify because it's like giving it to the fire. So it's putting ourselves in the fire, but it's also especially putting the alloy in the fire because the gold doesn't really need to go in the fire itself. The gold is already. This is going to be the same now as it is afterwards. It's the alloy that has to be removed out of the gold. So when it comes up, we say this is all alloy. I'm letting it go, letting it go, letting it go. As soon as we attach the alloy, then we don't want to go in the fire anymore because we want to keep it going. [00:22:34] Speaker B: It's my right. Right. [00:22:35] Speaker A: I like this. [00:22:37] Speaker B: Right. And also I'm defining myself with it. My identity is based on that. [00:22:43] Speaker A: Right? [00:22:44] Speaker B: Right. There has to be an identity shift. It's very important. Identity shift. There has to be an identity shift that I am gold and that God's here to uncover. Just take it out. Right. That's what is going on. That identity shift needs to happen. [00:23:07] Speaker A: Yeah. And gold means that I am peace, I am love, I am bliss. I am liberated. That's me. And then there's all this other stuff is not. Is the non self. It's not me. And. And it gets to the point when you really tune into this, that when. When you start letting go of stuff to the purify, you realize that it's not even yours to give away because it doesn't. It's not even yours. That, that's. I was having this meditation. I've very powerful meditation recently where I was letting go, letting go, letting go. And then I. I was like, this is nothing to do with me anyway. Right. Like, why am I letting it go? For there's not. It's not even mine. It's, you know, and then. And all of a sudden it all disappeared. And then I went into this very, very profound silence because. Because I had the shift. It's not mine. Any of this stuff. It's nothing to do with me. It's my attachment to it that's the problem, you know? So then once that happens, then he goes into deep, deep, deep silence. And. And then that's the original stage. And then it all comes back again for another round. [00:24:24] Speaker B: Let's talk about the second. [00:24:27] Speaker A: No, it's, it's. But it's very. Is these. These are profound experiences when you release it, completely release it. So the I find the best attitude is any negative thoughts, feelings, whatever, it just straight away, just out, you know, I'm not denying it. I'm not in denial. I'm not in a state of illusion and blaming anyone else. It's just like, let it go. The purifier's job is to purify things, and my job is to give things to the purifier. So should we do this drill? Shireen, there's a drill. [00:24:59] Speaker B: Yes. I love that drill. But. Okay, first we need to explain why the drill for this. So read the drill, I'll tell what. [00:25:06] Speaker A: It is, and then you can. You can take it deeper. So step one, a drill. If anyone doesn't know what a drill is, drill is a meditation practice where you do a particular practice again and again like you're doing an exercise. Drill number one, Become body less experience. I am a soul, a point of light. Two, turn to God in the soul world. Imagine God is a point of light in the world of light. Let your focus rise to the soul world. God is here, the supreme point of light. Shining light. I and God are connected. Light into light. Create the feeling. I belong to you. I belong to him, to God. Number three, receive the current of light. Sakash means a current of light. Receive a current of energy. God is giving silent power. Simply receive the power. Number four, let it flow through the soul. The received power naturally flows through you. You are the instrument. Remain bodiless and still. And five, world service happens. Hold the world briefly in awareness. That spiritual current spreads through the atmosphere to souls and to their elements. [00:26:57] Speaker B: Yay. [00:27:01] Speaker A: What a great drill. Serene is the drill queen. We have lots of these. Do you want to share a little bit more? We'll do it. [00:27:10] Speaker B: Okay. The reason why we did this drill for this one is when the purification is happening, when the soul is connected to God and the purification is happening. One of the ways, the easiest ways the purification can happen is so the soul is like, has a law and there's God here and you're connected. Right? So the vibrations, the Sakash of God going through the soul and the soul Actively participating in giving this beautiful vibrations to the world purifies the soul. [00:27:51] Speaker A: Yeah. Because you're in the right spot for it. [00:27:54] Speaker B: Yes. And so not only are you giving, but you're being purified also at the same time. [00:28:01] Speaker A: Yes, we'll do it. I'll read one short. Shall I read one step at a time and everyone can practice. [00:28:06] Speaker B: Yeah. And slowly. Yes, slowly. [00:28:10] Speaker A: So I'm going to read. So this is a little meditation for everybody. I'm going to read it and then just come into the experience for like 10 seconds or something like that. 15 seconds. And then we'll read the name. We'll do a couple times. So we go through this. It's like a little simple practice. So are you willing and ready to do this drill? First of all, become aware that you're not your body. Experience. I am a soul. A point of light. It. To turn to God in the soul world. Let your awareness rise to this world of light. God is here, the supreme point of light. I and God are connected. Light to light. Create the feeling. I belong to you. 3. Receive Sakash, a current of light. God gives silent power. Simply receive that silent power. Four, Let the energy flow through the soul. The received power naturally flows through you. You are the instrument. Remain that bodiless being and still with the power flowing through you. World service happens. Hold the world briefly in awareness. Spiritual energy spreads through the atmosphere, To souls and to the elements. Let's just do it one more time. Experience. I am a soul, a point of light. Turn your energy to God in the soul world. Let your awareness rise to the soul world. God is here, the supreme point of light. I and God are connected. Light to light. Create one feeling. I belong to you, to him, to the light. Receive success. The the energy God gives silent power. Simply receive that energy. Let it flow through the soul. The received power naturally flows through you. You are the instrument. Remain bodiless and still. As this light flows through. World Service happens. Hold the world briefly in your awareness. Energy spreads through the atmosphere, to souls and to the elements. Oh, shanty. [00:35:39] Speaker B: That was beautiful. Brother Michael. [00:35:42] Speaker A: Great, great drill. Thank you. So there we have it. You can do these drills as long as you want. And if you want us to do more drills, leave a comment. If you like that, we can do them more. Tureen is the drill queen after all, and she has hundreds and hundreds of these drills. So let's have a blessing. [00:36:03] Speaker B: You want to pick one or should I pick one? [00:36:07] Speaker A: You can pick one. [00:36:09] Speaker B: Royalty 85 royalty. This is God's blessing for you. Royalty. You've achieved a profound inner state of dignity. I want you to really think this is you. You've achieved a profound inner state of dignity. Your noble nature is an ever present crown atop your head. No challenge can break its brilliance. Through immense courage, you've masterfully guided your own heart and mind. [00:36:58] Speaker A: Yay. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you so. Blessings to everybody. Thank you for your presence. And may you realize that you are pure gold. Pure gold. And anything else is not who you are. Thank goodness. Lots of love and talk to you next week.